Martinez Familia

Waking up to bad news is not what I would consider an  ideal way to starting the day. A few days ago, it was disclosed that I lost another family member. Life never seems beyond surreal until the rug is pulled from right beneath you. Right now, I would rather the pain from  the fall as oppose to the pain you feel when you just can not catch your breath, let alone find the words to say... my condolences.

To My aunt, uncle, and cousins: 

You all have such an amazing bond. One of which many would not understand unless they have spent an evening or two at the Martinez house for dinner. It pains me to see a mother and father have to bury their son, a brother his "Irish twin,"sisters their brother, a grand daughter her proud grandfather, nephews their uncle. I just can not fathom the depth of your loss. The truth is, we are all on borrowed time. While our hearts are heavy, our beloved would not want to be mourned, but celebrated. He would have cracked several inappropriate jokes by now, or harrassed us due to the inexcusable gap in time in which we last spoke with, or seen one another. I already miss those times. I miss my cousin that made us laugh, that spoke the truths that we did not want to hear, and most of all the support in all that we have accomplished to date. When was the last time he was  not here for any one of us? Things just feel... different without him. A piece of every one of our hearts is missing. What makes me feel better is knowing that he was able to spend his last few weeks with his daughter and grand daughter. The last holiday we all spent together was full of laughter, and we all have a great story to tell about our beloved. I am here for you all at this time. I pray that we all become closer. Let us not take this life time for granted. Until the day we see him again, may God wrap His arms around each of you. 

We may not be capable of turning back the hands of time, but we are able hold on to the memories that last a life time. 

Peace be still... 

Shay Nefeteria